learning one day at a time..

I haven't been writing at all for months. It is a major part of my identity. I use my new marriage as an excuse...and there have been mild moments of depression but like most words that come out of my mouth now days those are just excuses. The problem here is actually discipline I don't know when this started really. Probably when I realized how many mistakes i made to screw myself over. There have been others that were major contributors in down fall of my life lol but ultimately I am at fault for allowing that to happen. I have to stop it. I have to learn how to take care of my soul. I know the basics of taking of myself as a functioning person in society but I haven't yet learned how to take care of my soul. writing is my therapy. I have never really know how to ask for help because it was not often offered. Now I have an amazing God given love..and I have done and said plenty of things to hurt this love just because I don't know how to receive it. Need to get back to my therapy =) that all I needed, that, And thanking God for all that he has given me including my husband. On that note...I think just releasing this will help.